Updated: Dec 1, 2020
I grew up in a large family, but my circumstances were a little different than most. I was given up for adoption at just 3 months old. Lucky for me my paternal grandmother was the one who adopted me. So I was able to stay within the family. However, it wasn't without my fair share of trauma, but more on that later.
I grew up loved and supported but feeling out of place. It was when I found out I was adopted that the feeling of not fitting in made some sense to me. That feeling of "out of place" carried over into my school and social life, as a teen and on through my adult years. Even though I knew and met many people, I felt I didn't quite fit in to any one "group". Although I made my attempts to fit in, I energetically couldn't handle being around too many people or crowded places for too long and found myself retreating for alone time... As contradictory as it was, and as much as it confused me, I was somewhat of a loner, but also craved the social connection. It wasn't until later in life when things changed for me... I stopped trying to fit in, and I started to find myself. I have always felt this pull to help others. Since I was a little girl, I had always been painfully aware that there was more to my life, to our lives, than what met the eye. Although the professions I sought out were of service to others in one way, shape, or form...it seemed to only be enough for me for a time. Until I started to question myself again about what my life's purpose was. I couldn't quite find that one job or career I was passionate about. However, I always had an infinite passion for the metaphysical since I was a child. I grew up in a household that not only had knowledge of the metaphysical, we believed in the spiritual and whom had mediumistic abilities, however, it also wasn't spoken about. It was taboo. So, I grew up finding a lot of things out for myself. I had many experiences with Spirit since I was a child, but I just took it for what it was and I didn't think anything of it. As I got older, my hunger to learn the metaphysical and seek out answers towards what I had been experiencing grew. I read all the articles and books I could find, and I asked all the questions I could to whomever I found that had psychic and/or metaphysical knowledge. Years had passed. I got older and got married. I soon found out that I was married to a man who wasn't so accepting or supportive of my passion. So, like many women, I scarified myself and my passion was put on the shelf. I plugged in to the typical American life of working the typical 8 hour day, being a wife and a mother focused on raising our children... It wasn't until one day about a year after my second child was born my passion was reignited by one of my many Spiritual experiences. However, this time I felt different...I felt as if the clock was ticking and time was running out for me to do something. I felt like I needed to up my game and go on fast forward so I won't miss my ride to wherever it was I was supposed to go. The only thing was I had no clue why I felt this way or what it was I was supposed to do. I knew it involved helping people but not sure how... but I knew in my bones it had to do with helping people on a bigger scale. It wasn't until during this time in my life, as I continued my self- motivated metaphysical studies, that I figured out I was always "open" to spirit and the reason I had the experiences I had was because I had these abilities. The abilities I dismissed and thought nothing of growing up. ....what I would feel, hear, see and know were things most people were not open to (even though it is possible for everyone to be). I had the epiphany that I had these abilities all this time and didn't even realize that's what they were. I knew and was aware, saw and felt things most people did not. The series of events that happened after the birth of my second child urged me to take my spiritual evolution more seriously... it lead me to actively start on my spiritual journey and psychic development. Things started changing for me at that point. People who weren't supportive faded away and my life went into a series of major life changing events. And the more I found out about myself, the more my abilities flourished and the more frustrated I became. I've jokingly (and sometimes in frustration) termed my abilities as "jack of all trades, master of none" as my spiritual abilities were all pretty equal in experiences...one was not stronger than the other. But I do have to say one thing for sure that was prominent throughout my life (and gave me a powerful punch) was my empathic ability. It was at this point where it all made sense to me. I finally connected some of the dots. Things started happening quickly. I had a strong attraction to spirit communication and healing work. I found myself enrolling in Dr. Kelli's Angel Intuitive Practitioner course then worked my way through the Reiki class levels and became a Reiki Master through The Healing Triad. I had no idea what to do with this training once I had completed it. I was scared to step outside of my box. My husband at the time wasn't supportive of this. I couldn't see how I could help others with what I've learned. Even though deep down I knew I was headed in the right direction, I felt stuck and felt I couldn't move forward. Fast forward a couple of years... I decided it was time to do some healing work for myself. Taking this time to work on myself was that thing that gave me that push in my Spiritual journey. Coincidentally I found a Soul Realignment Practitioner at that time. I always had this fascination with the Akashic Records. So I decided to schedule an Akashic Record reading and clearing session. It opened my eyes, helped me rid of stuck patterns that I found myself repeating time and time again, but most importantly opened those doors I needed opened to finally find the answers to my questions and my life purpose. This propelled me into another phase of growth and healing. Things fell into place once again and more dots connected. I have found so many parallels with what my ideas were when it all began, the detours I took in relation to where I am presently. I have figured out that all the arrows pointed me in this direction no matter which path I took. I know now that serving others in this spiritual way was the plan all along. I've come full circle and am at a point where I am not fighting it anymore. I accepted myself for what I am and have since sought out a mentor to help me hone and strengthen my abilities to help Spirit and help others. I have undergone and am still undergoing extensive training in evidential Psychic Mediumship and am well into my apprenticeship on my Shamanic path. The very two things I wanted to do from the very beginning of this journey but didn't want to believe was for me. I had to get over that belief for healing and acceptance to happen. I'm still healing and growing. I still get nervous of the new steps my Spirit tribe encouragingly guide me to take. I still push through it and I'm always I glad I do in the end. And so here I am...This journey has made me do my own shadow work. The stuff I thought I didn't need to heal from or was hidden but very pervasive in the background...which was still affecting me even now. I've peeled back layers, upon layers, upon layers of embedded imbalances & trauma. I grew up in a lower-middle class area. We always had a home (thank God) but food and money was on a day-to-day basis. We were always lived on a fight or flight basis either with money or in our neighborhood environment. We would run out of money a few days before getting more money in so that would mean being without food or we were on a 1-meal-per-day type of living until the money came in. Then there was always being alert of our surroundings when out and about the neighborhood in doing our daily errands. We'd have to watch out for shoot-outs, sexual predators and predators in general. For me, although I had to always be on high-alert, unfortunately the threat was very close. I was sexually abused by a trusted family member from the ages of 6- 8 yo. Moving forward as an empath, I became imbalanced emotionally and energetically. I couldn't understand why people suffered and why there was so much cruelty and violence in the world. I didn't understand why people would want to bring kids into this world with it being the way it was. I would feel the energies shift with just looking at a home, let alone upon entering it. I knew what people needed without being said. I anticipated people's motives and moves. I knew the character of a person with just a glance. I grew angry, depressed, aggressive and with a border-line eating disorder...and stood that way for a very long time.
I know have a clear realization of what I'm here to do. I have figured out what I had known all along but didn't realize. It was to help others on their spiritual journey...to help others find their answers as I found mine, to help guide them in their own healing journey, in their Divine and Personal Truths, to provide spiritual guidance, be a channel of Divine Source healing energy, to help people like you to find and connect those dots. I've learned that the trauma we experience in past lives also affects us in this one. This is why I do what I do.
My goal is to be the best I can be to help you. To be a clear and perfect channel for Divine Source so that you can receive what you need to receive so as to help you finally be rid of those self sabotaging, past life and ancestral patterns you find yourself repeating...so that you can move forward in your soul's evolution and integrate that here in this life. I want to help you move forward in leaps and bounds in your personal & spiritual journey. That may mean a soul reading, a psychic reading, to hear from a loved one in a Mediumship reading, through energy medicine with a Reiki or Shamanic healing session or a combination of all or some of it.... My mission is to help provide you with exactly what you need at this present time that is in alignment with YOUR needs, your Path and your Purpose in this lifetime so that you can begin or continue to grow and heal...and I look forward to working with you 😊💕 ...and this is my story in a nutshell
Much Love and Blessings to you my friend.